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Welcome to my personal thoughts and opinions…travels and personal encounters…momentary acquaintances and lifetime connections as I view life through the pink-tinted spectacles of breast cancer.

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October 26, 2007

CHRISTA'S PHOTO

Today marks the end of my first cycle of oral chemotherapy for metastatic cancer. Although there are no signs of any recurrence, my oncologist has recommended that I undergo this regimen because of the high grade and stage of my breast cancer.

After completing the prescribed six cycles in a few months, my oncologist recommends that I have a complete mastectomy.

This issue about the mastectomy has been cropping up time and again because my doctors could not seem to agree on the option that I should take. Two conservative doctors say that I should wait a while. The aggressive ones say that I should have done it yesterday.

Truth be told, I was having issues about the mastectomy for a while but while surfing through the internet a few days ago, I found this amazing photo that really struck me. It speaks volumes on hope, self-worth and inner joy.

Christa Slotbloom is a breast cancer survivor who continues to chronicle her journey through eloquent and honest photographs.


Seeing her photos have changed my perspective entirely on a lot of things.

October 16, 2007

TOUCHING VIDEO

This amazing video commercial for the featured cancer foundation never fails to bring me to tears.

October 12, 2007

BREAST CANCER AROUND THE WORLD


According to this Time magazine feature, the Philippines Age-Standardized Rate per 100,000 is 46.6.

October 11, 2007

SECOND ROUND

Today, I begin my new chemotherapy regimen.

It will be primarily anchored on Xeloda, a drug that is intended for cancer that has metastasized to the bone. The whole regimen will cover eighteen weeks consisting of six cycles, a whole spectrum of drugs and vitamins. According to my oncologist, because of the characteristics of my cancer, lobular carcinoma, she has to apply treatment on the cellular level. She is thinking that my cancer must have began ten to fifteen years ago.

I am a little wary of the side effects that are bound to come, but over all, I feel good that I am doing something to control the situation.

This new treatment is preventive in nature, to eliminate further any chance of a spread of the cancer to my bones. I like the idea that we are being aggressive in covering all possible avenues to ensure that any wayward cancer cell hiding within my body will be targeted and that cancer will not come back.

Just like anything in life, there are two options that I can take in my cancer fight: conservative or aggressive. After all these years, I have now found out that it actually feels good to be aggressive.

I am worked up and eager for the next round.

I am in faith that I am steadily moving towards a cancer knock-out.

October 9, 2007

ON STRESS AND BREAST CANCER RISK

I found this interesting article in the internet today. I am aware that medical practitioners and researchers have always raised an eyebrow towards the claim that stress can contribute to breast cancer risk. However, my own instinct and intuition tells me that stress did play a big part in the development of my cancer.

I could not totally erase from my mind that on March 2006, biopsy results on my two-centimeter or so lump stated that it was benign. Regretfully I wasn't able to have the lump immediately removed because of the subsequent events in my life which culminated in the hospitalization and tragic death of my mother. Ten months after, my lump had grown to six centimeters and had developed into Stage 3 cancer.


STUDY LINKS STRESS TO THE RISK OF BREAST CANCER
by Clair Weaver


STRESSED career women may be at higher risk of developing breast cancer, according to new research.

Those working in the most high-pressure jobs have been found to be 30 per cent more likely to be diagnosed with the disease, which is the biggest female cancer killer among Australian women.

A study of more than 36,000 women, published in the journal Epidemiology this month, reveals a link between workplace stress and heightened breast cancer risk.

The finding is controversial, as past research and doctors have ruled out stress as a significant risk factor.

"Women with both low job control and high job demands had higher risk of breast cancer than women with high job control and low demands," the study found.

Breast cancer is on the rise in Australia, affecting more than 11,700 women a year and killing 2600, but survival and detection are also improving.

Sue Carrick, head of research strategy at the National Breast Cancer Foundation, said it was difficult to measure and compare stress levels.

"What is important to note is that although we have a much greater understanding of some risk factors for breast cancer, we still do not understand the causes of the majority of breast cancers," she said.

She said the biggest known risk factors were getting older, with the disease peaking in women aged 45 to 69, being overweight, post-menopause and drinking four or more standard drinks a day.

Hormone replacement therapy, having children later in life or not at all and a family history have also been identified as risk factors.

To mark the start of Breast Cancer Month, the foundation has announced $10 million in funding to go towards finding better treatments for women with advanced breast cancer.

The Job Strain And Risk Of Breast Cancer study found no increased risk in women who worked part-time. It has been suggested stress may raise levels of estrogen, which can boost the risk of hormone-dependent breast cancer.

Sydneysider Amanda Maltabarow, 49, was in a high-powered marketing job when she was diagnosed with invasive breast cancer five years ago.

She has been taking the drug Tamoxifen since having a breast, ovaries and lymph nodes removed.

"I definitely think stress was a contributing factor," she said.

"I was a mum, I had a career, I was saying yes to everything, trying to be a corporate wife and splitting myself in 50 ways – I never relaxed and just enjoyed my life and family."

October 8, 2007

A TRIBUTE TO THE PINK LADIES


Last weekend, I joined my first breast cancer walk as a breast cancer survivor. The walk was a gathering of several medical companies, surgeons and government agencies to raise awareness about breast cancer in our city. Before that event, I guested in several local television shows to talk about my recent bout with cancer treatment.

The thirty-minute walk culminated in a work out session which was facilitated by the local Department of Health. Once again, I could not help but stand aside in admiration at my co-survivors, my sisters-in-arms, and how they have all risen above their individual situations.

No doubt, the highlight of the day for me was meeting Mary Grace. She is a very young cancer survivor, only 24. As soon as she was inducted as a member of our organization, everyone just trooped to her and gave her a hug. She could not help but shed a few tears. And we could not help but choke back the tears for her, so young and supposedly yet, so full of dreams.

Meeting such a young survivor elicited such a myriad of thoughts and emotions from me...compassion for a very young woman, a teacher at that...love for the older survivors who wordlessly embraced her into their lives...a little fear for my own young daughter...vast thankfulness to God for the ocean of grace that has flowed in my life. I left that encounter a little more enriched in an unexpected way.

Cancer has intruded in all our lives, in the devastating and consuming way that only cancer can. To some degree, we have been robbed of our innocence towards death, but instead of becoming tainted everyone seems to have become more child-like in their faith, because of the experience.

Our message is clear: life can be fruitful, even while fighting cancer.






CRITICIZED FOR CANCER

Today was one frustrating day. Being the wife of a minister, I know that many people expect me to be at the giving end most of the time. I wonder if I was too idealistic to think that being in treatment for cancer excuses me for a while from certain expectations.

Before going into my treatment last February, I had asked certain people to resolve whatever they needed to resolve with me, so that I could then focus on trying to get well. Of course, it helped that my oncologist told me, if there was anytime in my life that I needed to think of myself first, there would be no better time than now.

Who would have thought that some people would think that I was just making my cancer an excuse to be selfish. In truth, all I could think of these past few months has been finding the strength to get up each day, and find every possible means to walk with my family through this ordeal with hope for the future.

It is a very sad and hurtful thing to be criticized because I was trying to give myself time to get well. It is a hateful thing to say about me and my husband at this difficult time and I am quite angry and troubled.

Thankfully, our purpose in life is not determined by what people say about us. Thankfully, I have learned to be angry and productive at the same time.

Thankfully cancer has taught me to value the right things in life.

"Never believe that your fate has been misplaced. It can never disappear because it's everywhere around you. Your family, your friends, you classmates, your life. Live life as if you weren't living for anything. Take your time. Tomorrow's still coming.”

Patrick Mabilog