Thankfully, the results of my biopsy has come. My tumor is benign and what a relief. The doctor said I have about a year to take it out and so I will have to do that. I am still in Manila setting up the new place for Gian to stay in while he pursues his showbiz career. At least, Starstruck is now over and we can all go back to our normal lives.
March 16, 2006
March 10, 2006
A NEW JOURNEY
A week or so ago, I accompanied my nephew on Starstruck 3 's nationwide tour. I was taking a quick shower at around 4:00 a.m. in some hotel in Davao when I accidentally felt a lump on my breast. Fear immediately came over me and my knees started to buckle. It was an effort to get past the shock and finish the many things I was yet to do. Of all times, I was practically alone, away from my husband and kids, and I had to muster all courage to get through the days until I could go home to them.
As soon as I got back to Iloilo a few days ago, Bong and I went to a surgeon for a check up. After a physical exam, the doctor asked us to sit down and she started telling us about possibilities and chances until the most dreaded word came up...cancer. It felt as if I died a thousand deaths, watching her lips move and yet not really wanting to understand all the things she said. It was as if I was watching a movie scene. Never in a million things did I ever think that, watching all those melodramatic movies, hearing the stories of many friends, listening to the news about this or that celebrity, this terrible monster would come knocking at my door.
On the way home from the doctor's clinic, I could not stop the tears from flowing as a million thoughts ran through my mind. Will I see Angela walk down the aisle? Will I ever get to see Kiko become the great influencer that everyone says he will be? Will I be able to also launch Shane into his own showbiz career? Who will remind Gian that girls will always be there, but opportunity is golden? Who will tease Bong, defend him, nag him and budget his money for him, comfort him and encourage him when the going gets tough? As soon as we got home, Bong gathered Kiko and Angela and told them what the doctor said. All I could do was hold the three of them tightly as we all cried in fear.
In a while, I an off to the hospital for an incision biopsy to see if the tumor is benign. Meanwhile, God has been a faithful comforter and friend. I know that God is the one who delivers us. He is the one who determines our steps. He is our loving Father who will give us all He could, even if we don’t deserve it. All we need to do is ask. Just as Gian reached his dreams not because of his looks, personality or talent but because he earnestly asked God for it and walked in faith and obedience to His Word, I now claim God’s healing.
As soon as I got back to Iloilo a few days ago, Bong and I went to a surgeon for a check up. After a physical exam, the doctor asked us to sit down and she started telling us about possibilities and chances until the most dreaded word came up...cancer. It felt as if I died a thousand deaths, watching her lips move and yet not really wanting to understand all the things she said. It was as if I was watching a movie scene. Never in a million things did I ever think that, watching all those melodramatic movies, hearing the stories of many friends, listening to the news about this or that celebrity, this terrible monster would come knocking at my door.
On the way home from the doctor's clinic, I could not stop the tears from flowing as a million thoughts ran through my mind. Will I see Angela walk down the aisle? Will I ever get to see Kiko become the great influencer that everyone says he will be? Will I be able to also launch Shane into his own showbiz career? Who will remind Gian that girls will always be there, but opportunity is golden? Who will tease Bong, defend him, nag him and budget his money for him, comfort him and encourage him when the going gets tough? As soon as we got home, Bong gathered Kiko and Angela and told them what the doctor said. All I could do was hold the three of them tightly as we all cried in fear.
In a while, I an off to the hospital for an incision biopsy to see if the tumor is benign. Meanwhile, God has been a faithful comforter and friend. I know that God is the one who delivers us. He is the one who determines our steps. He is our loving Father who will give us all He could, even if we don’t deserve it. All we need to do is ask. Just as Gian reached his dreams not because of his looks, personality or talent but because he earnestly asked God for it and walked in faith and obedience to His Word, I now claim God’s healing.
Yes, God's promises are true. I stand on His Word that I am healed.
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